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Next step: washboard abs?

So I got the day off from work today, which meant I had some time to organize my room. My closet was over flowing, so I took on the treacherous task of cleaning it out. As I was going through it, I found an old photo album from about 6 years ago.

Now I know I get discouraged sometimes and fall back into my old eating habits, but I found a picture in this album that really showed me how far I have come. This picture was probably taken at my heaviest, which was 169. I look so outrageously different now, it's phenomenal. I guess any time I feel like I'm disgusting or unappealing, I just have to remind myself that I'm not the 16 year old pudgy girl I once was.

I'm on the far left in this picture. This was the spring of 2005.

I have a couple of emotions when looking at this, the first one being depression, knowing that at one point I looked like that. However, I also experience great elation when I look at this, cause I know I don't look like this anymore.

This is me now (not that you guys havent seen my updated pics, but these are even more updated):

I even started wearing skinny jeans, and they aren't half bad looking. 

When guys show interest in me I get confused, but then I remember I'm a 21 year old girl who dresses to impress and cares about the way she looks, not the awkward 16 year old who never felt comfortable in her own skin. I've changed for the better on the outside, now I just need my thoughts to match. 

I know some of you thought I was on the brink of an eating disorder, but I'm really trying to be healthy now. I'm not skipping meals so much anymore and I'm trying to make my food intake a little more balanced so I get enough protein, vitamins, carbs and good fats. I've maintained my weight since September which is so important. My friend and i have decided that we want to lose 10 pounds (which would put me at the smallest I've ever been as an adult, but still well within a healthy range), so I think I'm gunna start eating lean meats again, like turkey. Still no red meat or pork though. What are some good healthy things I should have in my diet?



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Jan. 6th, 2011 11:09 am (UTC)
You are indeed headed in the right direction, sweetie. You look wonderful, and you should be very proud of yourself.

As far as other healthy thing for your diet, it already sounds like you're doing it. Watch out for sugar in things where you would never believe it would be. Refined sugars are not our friend. :-)

Stay well, sweetie!
Jan. 9th, 2011 04:55 pm (UTC)
You weren't horrible to begin with, but you look amazing now. -is jealous- :D

I'm planning on losing at least 100 pounds by 2012, and as I'm sure I've told you before, I like seeing success stories from real people seeing as they have lost weight and shaped up.

I currently am hovering between 275 and 280 pounds. I hope to be around 180 by 2012 (which is still significantly heavier than you at your heaviest, lol, but I'll get there!)

I just wanted to express appreciation for you sharing these pictures and know that you are motivating and inspiring others to reach for their weight loss goals. Namely me. :D
Feb. 3rd, 2011 06:47 pm (UTC)
You are so welcome! I wish you lived near me cause then we could hit the gym together. I've been watching the biggest loser lately and I'm really inspired by those people. Even though they started out much heavier than I did, I always think to myself "Wow, if they can lose 130 pounds, why can't I lose my last 15?" So I just need to keep pushing. I feel content with my weight, which is kind of what preventing me from losing more (if I got down to 130, I'd be confident enough to put on a bikini), my biggest fear is that I will become to content and start over eating again and gain the weight back. I think once the summer comes around again, I will go for the gold, but until then, my goal is to maintain this weight.

I just want you to know that this battle is never over even when you make huge strides or reach your target weight. Maintenance is just as hard, as I'm sure youre aware.

Start counting the calories, try not to take in more than 1600 a day and if you stick to that, the pounds will melt off. 400 calorie breakfast, 400 calorie lunch, 500 calorie dinner and 300 more for snacks or desserts. Skinny Cow ice cream sandwiches are good, only 140 calories and a gram of fat. Subway breakfast sandwiches are satisfying and low in cal, and their regular 6-inch sandwiches are too if you put mustard instead of mayo or ranch, even lower if you have the turkey instead of meatball or bacon, or just a straight-up veggie is delicious too. At the store they sell black bean burgers which are so good, high in protein and low in fat if you get the right ones. I like to put a little BBQ sauce on mine and low fat cheese (6% daily value of fat or less in one slice). I also have some frozen baked fish patties (5% daily fat) and tuna (almost fat free) for lunches sometimes. Stop drinking soda if you do, It's one of the biggest culprits to obesity. I get my fix with diet pepsi. Certain hot drinks like green tea and coffee are great appetite suppressors so they are good to tie you over between meals or snacks. These are some things I did, and if you do it too, since you are starting bigger than me, you could lose like 30 pounds this month, no joke.
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