So I got the day off from work today, which meant I had some time to organize my room. My closet was over flowing, so I took on the treacherous task of cleaning it out. As I was going through it, I found an old photo album from about 6 years ago.
Now I know I get discouraged sometimes and fall back into my old eating habits, but I found a picture in this album that really showed me how far I have come. This picture was probably taken at my heaviest, which was 169. I look so outrageously different now, it's phenomenal. I guess any time I feel like I'm disgusting or unappealing, I just have to remind myself that I'm not the 16 year old pudgy girl I once was.
I'm on the far left in this picture. This was the spring of 2005.
I have a couple of emotions when looking at this, the first one being depression, knowing that at one point I looked like that. However, I also experience great elation when I look at this, cause I know I don't look like this anymore.
This is me now (not that you guys havent seen my updated pics, but these are even more updated):
I even started wearing skinny jeans, and they aren't half bad looking.
When guys show interest in me I get confused, but then I remember I'm a 21 year old girl who dresses to impress and cares about the way she looks, not the awkward 16 year old who never felt comfortable in her own skin. I've changed for the better on the outside, now I just need my thoughts to match.
I know some of you thought I was on the brink of an eating disorder, but I'm really trying to be healthy now. I'm not skipping meals so much anymore and I'm trying to make my food intake a little more balanced so I get enough protein, vitamins, carbs and good fats. I've maintained my weight since September which is so important. My friend and i have decided that we want to lose 10 pounds (which would put me at the smallest I've ever been as an adult, but still well within a healthy range), so I think I'm gunna start eating lean meats again, like turkey. Still no red meat or pork though. What are some good healthy things I should have in my diet?